To the first boy who was my friend
I thank you
To the first boy who I had a crush on
I hope you’re doing well
To the first boy who called me fat
I hope you stopped hurt others with your words
To the first boy who physically attacked me
I hope you learned to release your anger in other ways
To the first boy who had a crush on me
I hope you know I was too scared
To the first boy who I spoke to
I hope you know I just wasn’t ready
To the first boy who wanted to date me
I hope you know it wasn’t your fault
To the first boy I developed strong feelings for
I hope you know I understand the rejection
To the first boy I kissed
I hope you know that I had never been kissed like that in 18 years
To the first boy I let in
I hope you know that I’ve never shared so much with anyone
To the first boy I loved
I hope you know you meant the world to me
To the first boy I slept with
I hope you know I never thought I would be able to
To the first boy who broke my heart
I hope you know you killed me in ways I never thought possible
To the first boy who used me
I hope you are able to find your happiness in life
To the first boy who I used
I hope you know that I was searching to feel wanted again
To the first boy who came back
I hope you know I appreciate our friendship more than ever
To the boys who remain in my life
I love you all as brothers
To the man who took my innocence
I hope you know you broke me before they ever had the chance
Lea Gonzalez is a college student at UC Davis where she studies Biopsychology. She developed her love for writing in the first grade where she started off writing short stories and songs in Spanish. Aside from writing, she is into various different types of music and reading.