i didn’t think i was an extrovert
until my state basically shut down
and i stopped being able to regulate myself
with all the new regulations
i didn’t realize how much i needed
the in between interactions
reading in crowded classrooms
paragraphs at a time, not chapters
lunchtime conversation
to tune out half of
and play twenty questions
or finish lyrics of lorde songs
i can make up the big things
my teachers have google classroom
ap tests are online now
and i probably was never getting that job
it’s the little things—
not worrying about how much tp i use,
weaving my way through crowded hallways—
that i can’t make up
it’s the little things—
microscopic not quite organisms—
that I wish were made up
instead of real