how do i find a mind scattered in pieces around a city?
been losing my head since the day i got here.
but as close to heaven that i’ve been a while
how do i fix a life that feels so perfect?
mend a heart that isn’t broken, but isn’t beating anymore
the line between euphoria and self-destruction is too thin for me
i cross it often
i can’t think straight most days
my thoughts take over every waking moment until i exist in reality only in waves
not sure what reality is most days
most days i dance until my feet blister
other days i cry until there are no tears left
maybe the never-ending sun beaming has something to do with my emotions existing only in extremes
the city where there’s so much magic you forget to breathe
so much beauty you forget not to stare in the sun
so much opportunity you forget who you are
there are no homes here
just rooms filled with aspiration
corners plagued by desperation
studios filled with hope
hearts filled with longing
i don’t belong here
my heart can’t survive here
i want to go home
not sure home exists anymore
i gave it all up for la
for a shot at my dreams like the millions of others feigns itching to make it out
the city where inspiration fills your lungs with every breath
the city where i found myself yet still feel
Kyra Horton is a twenty-year old creator. Whether expressing herself through writing, performing, or painting, she strives to turn pain into beauty. Her identity as a young Black woman from Chicago shapes her work. She grew up being inspired by activism and solidarity in her community and the arts. Kyra is fearless in the avenues she seeks in order to create the emotions painted in her heart. The world is Kyra’s canvas, as well as her muse. Her primary medium of creativity is spoken word poetry. Kyra has performed at over 50 different events since beginning her poetry career 5 years ago. Kyra published her first poetry book called Cries of a Butterfly, wrote and produced her album of poetry called The Silencer, released an EP of poetry called Tears Of Gold, and published poetry for the Gate Newspaper and the nonprofit organization Sixty Inches From Center. She has led writing workshops as well as participated in journalism cohorts to cultivate her skills.